I think over the past few months, I have started to really pay attention to quotes, and things that I hear people say in movies or during conversations. I realize that some of the quotes are sometimes taken out of context, but some can stand for themselves. I recently watched Inception again, and there is a quote from the movie, that really gets to me. A quote that, especially now after a breakup, I can relate to.

In the first quarter or so of the movie, you see the character Saito, sitting in a helicopter talking to the main character, Cobb. The main character has been given a choice and need to decide whether or not Saito can be trusted.

So, do you want to take a leap of faith, or become an old man, filled with regret, waiting to die alone.

It’s a silly question, right? No one wants to become an old man, filled with regret waiting to die alone. I don’t even want to get old, I am scared of getting old and grey and unable to move. I am scared of forgetting who I am, forgetting what I have done and the people around me. But as much as I am scared, I also realize that there is nothing I can do about it. What will happen, will happen and the best I can do is to enjoy my life now, and make the best of the time I have. I want to take a leap of faith, but I need to find the right someone to take that leap with, I guess.

But the quote does bring something to mind. Something that I realize now is a much more powerful thought, that I thought before. When you are fresh out of a breakup, it is feelings like these that haunt me the most. Going from being in a relationship to suddenly not being in one, you start to have feelings and worries about whether or not you’ll ever find someone again. You start to worry about being alone, and you start to worry about alone forever.

I am worried about getting old. I am not too worried about being filled with regret, as I have already done a lot that I can be proud of. But waiting to die alone, that is the one thing I fear the most. The one thing, I hope will not happen.

A quote like this makes you think. What do you want to achieve in life and what to you want to look back at when you get older? All I want, is to find someone to share my life with, grow old with. So that one day, I will become an old man, filled with joy, waiting to wake up another day next to the one I love.